Monday, February 24, 2014

The Artist's Insecurity

Class IV, Aquamedia, 22x30

This painting was accepted into the Watercolor Society of Oregon's Spring Show--Juror, Robert Burridge

Insecurity:  this is a consistent theme of many artists' blogs/writings, and if an artist doesn't admit to insecurities--don't believe them! As hard as we fight to paint only for ourselves, listen only to our own opinions, find our own truth, and learn to wear a thick skin; there are so many moments of self-doubt. 

This past year I had a string of acceptances in some bigger, national shows, which really set me up to have greater expectations as I sent off my competition entries. Naturally, this made getting the "sorry" letters and emails a bigger let-down than usual. And as things go, after my upswing, came a downswing. I got more rejection letters than acceptances.

So what is one to do? I love this Alice Walker quote, "Expect nothing. Live frugally on surprise." I should put this on every prospectus that comes my way. I should prepare my images, fill out my forms, send my entry fees, and as I hit send or mail my envelope say "expect nothing." I want to "live frugally on surprise."

If I could reign in my expectations to the things I have control over, like what goes on at the end of my paintbrush and what I put on my sheet of paper, I'd have more energy for the creating.


Poco said...

Mom, I told you this one was great! we all have insecurities about what we put our heart into. You admitting them publicly should leave you feeling freed somewhat, I hope. You can move past them and do what you do. You are so good at it! I'm always inspired by your commitment to real art rather than just putting meaningless stuff out there. Love you!

Ruth Armitage said...

Great quote... I think I should put it on the wall in my studio too!